dreaming carousels and little wooden horses going round

SHIFTED.

2009-09-06T05:18:00.000-07:00

okays, i've shifted again, to iwantmoreicecream.wordpress.com. (:

what a lovely,

2009-05-03T01:22:00.000-07:00

3 may 2009, 4.22pm

such a cute advertisement! (: jacs showed it to me a couple of days ago. makes me wanna go hongkong all over again.

AND, school's suspended, now that swine flu might sweep us off our feet. sighs, i hope it doesnt affect the real holidays in 4 weeks time. i might so burn down the DO if it affects our holidays, i think mandy will come along with me as well!

a beautiful mess.

2009-04-26T08:20:00.000-07:00

26 april 2009, 11.20pm

i made this over the last week! looks like ortho isnt that busy after all! (: love the vintage buttons.

and love the uber huge black flower! reminds me of marc jacob daisy ((((: will go get more buttons soon (: can make them as presents! (:

and omg! yummilicious japanese food! (: dont you just love the way they look? (: and they're super duper yummsss (:
5 weeks to my own japan trip! (: am so going to love it! (but we'll have to get over ortho EOPT first)

and this is quite funny!
peishan. says (11:24 PM):
i start at 8, not optimum for cabbing
deb. | I never promised you a rose garden says (11:25 PM):
YAA, cannot
deb. | I never promised you a rose garden says (11:25 PM):
must train
peishan. says (11:25 PM):
train for what?
peishan. says (11:25 PM):
OHH
peishan. says (11:25 PM):
take train HAHAHAHAHAHA

looks like my brains dont function v well at 11ish. that's quite an early timing, and I'M ON CALL TMRRR, again. last call for sgh, (: nice.

'you're the most interesting man i've ever met'

2009-04-25T08:54:00.000-07:00

25 april 2009, 11.55pm.

watched revolutionary road yesterday. another of my artsy shows in the new year (not so new anymore).

it's a pretty interesting show, with a plain simple plot that goes on in a lot of our lives, with brilliant acting and great lines. makes us think, think about what we have, who we love and why we love them and that maybe our love for them will expire somehow on someday that's sooner than we think.

so, watch it! (: many thumbs up!

keep one eye open at night.

2009-04-18T03:27:00.000-07:00

18 april 2009, 6.27pm

okay, i had a brilliantly long week, like BRILLIANTLY long, astoundingly never-ending. but it's been great! like brilliant! (despite the many 3am nights and the flu bug from the doc in the ortho room).

rachael yamagata stole my heart at the gig, it's so splendid that i wanna go for it the next time she comes! and we got our tickets signed! and polaroids taken (: but deb was blocked in the polaroid, poor photography :(

AND, i did a night call. not too bad, can see much more than in the wards and the clinics. so it was a good call, worth my no-dinner and n0-sleep (: and i got to do suturing, very good! after i missed my opportunity at the ED all when hypocount was REALLY important so you only get to do one thing a day. so when pple do suturing, i do hypocounts.

oh, and the kids at KKH are OH SO CUTE. some of them look so scared and teary, and looked like they cried a whole lot while waiting in the queue. and their x-rays are so little and so pretty! i like of like ortho paeds. but it's a tedious long road to go, so i guess, we'll see how it goes.

2 weeks down and 6 weeks to JAPAN! holiday! (: YAYYY.

and i paint a pretty picture.

2009-04-10T07:00:00.000-07:00

1o april 2009, 10.00pm

and ORTHO starts, with my mentor away in some faraway land, clearing his leave, i have a long long long weekend where other people have to get back and attend clinics. (: am real happy about that!!! (: what a good friday, (:

we concluded the week with a cg bbq. (:and crazy pictionary, uno stacko and a crazy lot of other games. it's good when your cg is as slack as you are.

and! i met the anat grp girls today. we were brilliantly happy when yus bought some clinique makeup and we managed to get free samples. (: YAYYYY. we love free samples. and mandy just couldnt stand us, and our girliness (: but like huipei said, it's good meeting people you haven't met in quite a while. it's lovely and happy (:

the nightmare has arrived.

2009-04-03T21:43:00.000-07:00

04 april 2009, 12.44pm.

THE NIGHTMARE HAS FINALLY ARRIVED. the cgh nightmare. the hospital that is located in SIMEI (in elvin's and peilin's part of the world) has finally arrived. i have to take the red line, and a huge part of the green line to get there. yuckers :( not happy, and it's do ortho, i dislike bones, i dislike bones and even more so, broken bone. :( this is not going to be fun when im already complaining before the 8 weeks start. and we get NO HOLIDAY before the new posting starts. how brilliant. ok, enough with the complaining.

AND! the celebrate the almost non-existent psych posting, we went for movies and dinner and more food. the shinjuku incident. its really disgusting, and i dont wanna go japan anymore! the mobs are everywhere and they enjoy like chopping people's hands off and they have water-proof thumbdrives too. hahaha apparently, jonk has ptsd from it. the rest of us pretty much also went omfg when they start slashing everyone in the show, it's like the modern era, chinese version of 300. something else that was meant to celebrate the holidays, but wasnt quite joyous as well.

oh, and wednesday and IMH started at 2pm instead of 830am. the seminar room was so full that we adjourned to play guitar heros at kenneth's. well, i adjourned to use his laptop and wireless while the rest enjoyed guitar heros. and i took a video of them! am too lazy to upload now though. im tired. (: after 4 weeks of psych. really (: hahaha.

the perfect day.

2009-03-28T08:06:00.000-07:00

28 march 2009, 11.24pm.

the perfect day is complete with gerd episodes
and
2 servings of CSI NY
2 servings of gossip girl
many many servings of hongkong drama
and a few antacids.

how yummy and nice right. (:
boohoos.

ah-choo!

2009-03-14T13:05:00.001-07:00

15 march 2009. 4.05am.

AND, do not play with little friends who are down with a fever and URTI. because the little friends will pass whatever they have to you. :( little ethan has URTI and fever and now, his silly aunt has got URTI too, i cannot stop sneezing. :( recover soon, little boy.

oh, and i was going through photos to develop and this is what i found, very cute! where little friend, and his daddy and his daddy's daddy are all in the same photo. looks rather random but super extremely adorable at the same time! (:

grrrrrrrrr.

2009-03-14T12:35:00.000-07:00

15 march 2009. 3.36am.

im not that into pleasing people,
will not please, dont like to please, and not going to please.
im angsty for some reason, and i always am.
i think i need some bitching therapy.

now that i've cancelled tuition and cannot uncancel it without looking like a freak.
i shall stone at home.
and stone.
stone.
instead of rushing about to get my stuff done with an hour or two.
not attempting, especially not after spending a week at psych.
dont wanna kee siao yet.

well.

2009-03-10T09:04:00.000-07:00

11 march 2009. 12.05am.

i think that facebook is a really powerful tool.

you see things that well, you dont quite expect to see or actually see those things on facebook. (i know you know what i mean). especially when you least expect it.

you see stuff that you never knew existed or stuff that people did. and go omg. okay, no judging, not supposed to judge, who are we to judge right. but it's not quite judging, it's just that, you actually had higher expectations of such people. and thought that they're not that bad actually. BUT, alright folks, it's time to throw your expectations out of the window. sit back and look at exactly how many baddies there are out there. expectations dont quite work the way they do anymore.

socks.

2009-03-06T11:27:00.001-08:00

07 march 2009, 3.27am.

and over dinner and shopping with amanda, i came up with a real stupid idea. i bought a pair of new heels, high and PAINFUL. but i cant wear my socks with them because they're peep toes. so i asked manda, eh. do you think i can cut my socks so my toes still show ar? then she went HUHHH, wont your socks lose elasticity? and i went, oh yah horr then i think cannot. hahahaha. CALL ME RETARDEDDD! (:

and picasa makes our fish and chips much better than us. hmmm looks kind of weird. but it was quite yummy (:
I WANNA SHOP MOREE AND MYYYYY 80BUCKSS BAGGGG omggg. so pretty! :(

take a moment to,

2009-03-06T09:09:00.000-08:00

7 march 2009, 1.10am.

take a moment to breathe in the air.
(:

everything will be just a tad simpler when you cut the expectations and just accept whatever comes your way.
don't expect anything from whoever or whatever for they'll probably disappoint.
it's a little easier to rejoice in the little surprises that you've never quite expected but have come your way.
:
ROARRR
my NOSE IS BLACK.

he's just not that into you.

2009-02-25T22:02:00.000-08:00

26 feb 2009. 2.39pm.
and we watched this! (: post-pros. i conclude it's a show of the psycho people turned beautiful and put into the same circle of friends. we also concluded that we all kind of know one each or more of those characters, the one who imagines, the one who's like in love with an attached, and all the other blahs and psychotic people on the set.
and the guy on my left said it, oh, drew barrymore a bit fatter here arrr. then the guy on my right, went, actually scarlett johansson not that skinny ar. and i went WHATTT!! she's scarlett johansson and she's drew barrymore. but the 2 guys just ran them down like they dont really matter the second they appeared on screen, -.-. you can start guessing who said what. (((: BUT i must say justin long is rather cute in the show, but the girl he likes, kind of freaky. hahahaha.

and shopping resumes! amanda told me we shldnt talk this much online now, or else we'll have nothing to say to each other when we shop later, my DEAR GIRL! when does that ever happen! we only have too little time to say too many things, not quite the other way round right!

AND it's raining, pouring, showering, thundering, lightning-ing. not that good for holidays. rain rain go away.

written all over.

2009-02-23T03:10:00.000-08:00

23 feb 2009. 7.10pm.

i think good and lovely friends are hard to come by. very rare actually. but you actually dont need that many of them. and when you find one, or two of them, you'll really be thanking your lucky stars that they exist! (((:

i might kill someone real soon.

2009-02-19T23:36:00.000-08:00

20 feb 2009. 3.37pm.

omg. im wondering if i do a headstand and let more blood gush to my brains, increasing cerebral perfusion. i might be able to expand my memory space up there. cofm is so common sense and yet its so hard to recall common sense, they shld just let us do open book throughout. omg, i want this to end, but if the end comes too soon, that means i havent got enough time to complete my revision. like that how? ):

brillianttt!!!

2009-02-17T23:02:00.001-08:00

18 feb 2009. 3.03pm.

hahahaha, just when the rest of us are dreaming when our big break will arrive with a cup of hot coffee and a pile of notes right in front of our desktops at home, THIS IS WHAT LOVELY GWEN HAS DONEEE!! our dear girl made it to the straits times top 10 read articles online! not only did she managed to write an article for sunday times, it's one of the most read articles. ask yourself what you're doing again. im asking myself that too. but you rock, babe!! (((: told you sn girls are brilliant, you've got to believe that (:

good day, love.

2009-02-16T08:52:00.000-08:00

17 feb 2009. 12.53am.

a (first) note to the little one.

hey little sunshine,
i saw you bright and early this morning,
when you were cozing up in your yellow little pjs.
one hand tugging onto your lovely yellow sweater,
the other on your chubby tum-tum.
i saw you with lots of expressions in your dreams,
smiling and grinning at some,
yet frowning and grimacing at others.
this reminds me a lot of your little even tiny-er self some 5 month ago.
so lovely, so tiny, so fragile.
and now, you're growing day by day, bit by bit.

i wish you love, joy, health and knowledge as you continue to grow.
to seek comfort in those you love and those whom love you even more,
and even to seek solace even in those whom might bring you sorrow than joy.

love,
your aunt who's really really bored of her notes.
(p/s: your mom should tell you never to follow in our footsteps.)

indeed, wishful dreaming.

2009-02-09T23:02:00.000-08:00

10 feb 2009, 3.02pm.

hahaha. last week, there was the 10million chinese new year jackpot toto. and mathew and zhenwei were trying to teach me how to buy toto. what system 6, 7 and 8 are. in the library, in midst of crazy pharmaco/cofm mugging on a post-CHP day. and how to buy them each a new car when i strike the 10 million dollars. but happens so, i never quite stepped into singapore pools and bought my winning ticket. hahaha it's still waiting for me there! during the NEXT 10 million jackpot toto next year durng chinese new year. but to think of it, what would i do if i had 10 million dollars, i told them, i will buy a mini cooper, buy a house and hide the rest of the money and not tell anyone i struck toto, for fear of someone kidnapping me or my mom. (hahaha, how funny right and that im this fat so fat people are harder to kidnap.)

add a few more things that i'll get, i'll get that ever so pretty vintage looking katespade bag-clutch, and ermm a miumiu bag, and ermmm OMG! a digital SLR and learn proper photography and hahahaha my long overdued 21st birthday deal with jiayan about tiffany jewelry, that'll probably use less than 1% of my 10million bucks and i still have 10million bucks safely in my pocket to keep!

omg, i should stop dreaming RIGHT AT THIS MOMENT! and go mug pharmaco! because NONE of this will become reality and im so wasting time.

but still, i want my tiffanys. and my miumiu, and my katespade and my dSLR! (:

well, maybe.

2009-02-07T23:49:00.000-08:00

08 feb 2009. 3.50pm.

the same song has been playing like 20over times for now.
maybe, after a long while or for some time, certain things become unimportant.
we dont quite bother about the details (maybe, we never did bother about them) or any part of it anymore.
many things could have been better, and been more beautiful than they are now.
but it doesn't quite matter anymore.

maybe, it's true that most of the times, we never really wanted anything out of most stuff we do anyway.
maybe, we barely needed something, anything to feel up a certain empty space at some point of time. and once we're over and done with, it's time to discard those things we once held onto and just move on.
it's just like going through the motion.

growing up.

2009-02-07T07:41:00.001-08:00

07 feb 2009. 11.41pm.

was having some random chat with my daddy after dinner today. and we were talking about little kids. and he was telling me how hard life was when they were kids. hahaha. 1 kampung with 300 people or households had ONE tap. and you had to carry your own water in oil-tins back to your own place. (i know what you folks are thinking about, that peishan would have died if she lived in that era, she doesnt even know how to take her own bus and carry her own heavy barang - but i DO KNOW okays) and like how my grand-dad came all the way from china and how my grand-ma doesnt know her birthday. my mom says she knows it, just that she cant remember it on the calendar, she remembers it by the lunar month. and how i/cs in the past used to be folded up and how my grandma tore up her i/c to make a new one because she thought she didnt look pretty enough in the photo. (so cute right. i know where i got the vanity of looking into every reflective surface from! not mommy from grandma! hahaha (: ) life was so different and so much harder back then. and it's really kind of cool to hear it from my parents and how they're so excited to tell me such stories. maybe our parents are really growing old but we're moving too quickly to see that they've aged this quickly.

the jam

2009-02-03T08:45:00.000-08:00

04 feb 2009. 12.46am.

oh my. the jam this morning is TERRIBLE, like terrible terrible terrible terrible. i was about to faint. and i scraped my toe. while getting off the car. (after being 30ish mins late) and in an attempt to look at my poor toe, my poor phone landed face down on the floor, or rather, the road. 2 more injuries. my phone is sad, injured and its value probably dropped by a significant amount again. oh crap, looks like i cant change it after all. :( i feel saddd. WHERES MY GOOD LUCK AND KARMAAA? im in desperate need for ittttt! :(

wake up call.

2009-02-02T10:12:00.000-08:00

03 feb 2009. 2.12am.

i am sleepy, very sleepy.
yet very high at the same time.
im just playing random old songs on my itunes.
and listenning to them and talking on msn.
hahahah. to happy friends. like adeline! ADELINE!!! mumu, zhiyong. hahaha.
they're all such cute friends.
i wish cute friends were around me everyday.
and i saw more of them.
i thought of ade when i had no happy town food dinner companion today. hahaha.
i bet it will happen a lot more till july.
nvm, save money, and eat science canteen 2bucks dinner with mathew!
and mug on.

told you i was sleepy. and not talking well.
and i will be late tmr. i know it already.
only the ebm part of the tutorial's important anw.

每个路口怎么转都错

2009-02-01T05:54:00.000-08:00

01 feb 2009. 10.00pm.

空气中呼吸都凝着
我让思考放空
看你转身上楼
我知道这就是答案了
还能怎么感受
那残余的温柔当黑夜
清晰过白昼当快乐
赔上了所有当理智
熬不过放纵你的神色
什么都淡了
我还守着爱
飘着

i wish you blue birds in the spring, to give your heart a song to sing.

2009-01-27T06:05:00.000-08:00

27 jan 2009. 10.07pm

(: yayys to cny! (: the season for yushengs, bakkwas and pineapple tarts. and the official reason to grow fatter. (((:

and ethan-than! ((: winning the award for the most-cny looking new year clothes!

and the fantabulous YUSHENGGG! (((: the many layers is enough to make pen-cai already! (((: hahahahaha. and the creative mandarin orange slices are by my daddy. hahahahaha. so weird but so cute! (:
andddd a couple of days, we sent adeline off! (: brilliant art pieces of the nah & yeo creative co. (:

and so, there's only me and suping nah left for mortons, and everything else for the next 6 mths. =

erppss.

2009-01-22T09:41:00.000-08:00

23 jan 2009. 1.41am.

oh gosh. i wanna sleep, i really really wanna sleep.
but i cant, i just cant get to sleep.

i'm like super duper extremely tired from today.
i went to school to mug bright and early at 10ish 11am. i woke up at 9ish.
and then, i did a million things.
like donate blood.
go for chp meetings.
attempt to help.
and went to town.
where i WALKED-WALKED-WALKED-WALKED from plaza sing to orchard hotel
ORCHARD HOTEL. thats BESIDE delfi orchard. i've never NEVER walked so far in a brilliantly long time.
omg. and so im really tireddd.
BUT I CANT CANT CANT get to sleep.

AND, i have chp meeting again at 10am tmr. like 10am is really early.

omg, and im amused at my own bitching. maybe i shld drug myself with anti-histamines. or cough syrup. i think that will help a lot. oh boy, :(.

(((:

2009-01-21T10:09:00.000-08:00

22 jan 2009. 2.15am.

ade (: says (2:08 AM):
hahaha i DIDNT BUY ANYTHG
peis. says (2:08 AM):
YAYYY
ade (: says (2:08 AM):
impressive right
peis. says (2:08 AM):
good what!
peis. says (2:08 AM):
YES, VERY
ade (: says (2:08 AM):
i FINALLY BOUGHT MY IPOD TOUCH POUCH
ade (: says (2:08 AM):
vvvpretty!
peis. says (2:08 AM):
i thought you said you didnt buy anything???
peis. says (2:08 AM):
HAHAHAHAHA
ade (: says (2:09 AM):
hahaha only that

hahahaha. this is how much sense we make at 2ish am ((((: but i really didnt buy anything recently! (: hahahaha (: take care, babe!

so yesterday.

2009-01-20T11:06:00.000-08:00

21 jan 2009. 3.09am

But I Do Love You - LeAnn Rimes

hmmm coyote ugly is so long ago that i dont know when it first came out. but it was definitely a hit then (i think). love the songs. so nice!

i dont like when, nothing's going my way
and i dont like to be the one with the blues

ANDDD! i read some pharmaco today. like a tweeny weeny bit, but at least i did some stuff (:

this time round.

2009-01-19T01:23:00.001-08:00

19 jan 2009. 5.24pm.

2009 has started for a while. and 2009 seems like 2008, and like 2007, and 2006. we always wish that the new year is better than the previous one. but really, it seems almost the same after a while. there'll be some imperfections, some sadness and some troubles. at the same time, there will be some happiness, some joy and some adventure. nothing's very much different, we just keep going on and on.

ADELINE PINCHEDDD ME!!!

2009-01-17T09:57:00.000-08:00

18 jan 2009. 1.59am.

HAHAHAHA, adeline pinched me! like not really hard, but she totally took me by surprise!!! she thought i made a brilliant suggestion to go to dingtaifung for dinner so she pinched me on the way up the escalator, with TWO hands!! hahahahhaha. and so. my revenge came, she was completely shocked when i slapped her back all of a sudden. (i didnt intend the shock factor either). hahaha BUT!! it was quite funnn!! (((: hahahaha. omg. how evil. =p

and we ate brilliantly A LOT in a day. we went to waraku, for the 50% off sukiyaki! and we actually met cher and jq!! omg. how amazing, and they sat right beside us. 1 50% coupon per table, so we could sit together. (: and once again, we kope-ed the wetwipes. im sure jiayan and jacs will be proud of us doing that! hahahaha.

AND we ate canele! nougatine! (: omg, yummmssss. (((: but i still prefer the paragon canele over the shaw one, the paragon one's prettier! (:

so artsy right! (: proud of me? hahhaha.

yayys! (: the awful mess we made! (: hahahaha.

canele's for high-tea, and SO! dingtaifung's for dinner! (: omg. we, the gluttons, ate xiao long baos, wantons andddd yam baos that looked exactly like xiao long baos! SUPER TASTY! and to make our service charge worth, we drank like 4 cups of chinese tea each. hahaha. and burped a gazillion times. how gross. hahaha.

while we were waiting! (a good half an hour!)
oh! and i bought yet another cny top. top #342352543, but this time round, my top satisfies my dad's requirement of 'not being too black for cny'. so yayy! (: and this is from the previous time! when we were at lucky plaza eating smashed chicken! (: yummmmsss. and my cheapo waraku thingy. and WHY AM I NOT MUGGING FOR PHARMACO? i really wonder.

come to momma!

2009-01-14T02:21:00.000-08:00

14 jan 2009. 6.22pm

OMG! look look look at this! disney for paul and joe. i want ONE OF EVERYTHING! but it's not launched here yet, sadly :( but omg omg omg, its SO PRETTY! (: (: (: love it love it love it!

mayhems

2009-01-12T10:57:00.000-08:00

13 jan 2009. 2.58am

okays.
jacs is gone. :(
jy is gone. :((
soon.
ade will be gone too. :(((
in a couple of days.
peis will be left with no girlies.
no girlies.
:(
hows. half a year with no one to understand the kueh passion.
and the need for long john.
and why we need to glare at the same top for 5 times before we buy it.
and to venture into the weird looking lucky plaza in search of smashed chicken
and STEAMBOAT STEAMBOAT STEAMBOAT.
and why cold rock is ACTUALLY called cold rock.
and how big is adeline's thumbdrive (hahahahaha.)
and what the plastic barriers in town are for (they are really NOT safety barriers)

and our amazing efforts to insult one another! hahahahaha.

:( let this half a year pass real quick and bring my girlies back! NOWWW!

keep going on.

2009-01-11T06:09:00.000-08:00

11 jan 2009. 11.31pm

okays. i've been blogging in bits recently without much photos! so here comes the photos, from end 2008 to the brilliant 2009. we steamboat-ed on christmas eve! (((: the theme was red and green, but we all wore weird hues of stuff and insisted that it's green or red. =x

and then! nye came! we finally canele-ed. the most amazing thing that happened was that the canele person called me an hour later we started eating to tell us that our table was ready, kind of like omfg and we had a really good laugh. he didnt even know that he actually called us. and WE LOVE NOGAUTINEEEE! (:

and! made up for the lack of christmas photos at the christmas taka tree! (: and steamboated AGAIN at night! crystal jade (: with the lovely xiao long baos!(:

and CMC! (: check out their lovely seasame street cupcakes (: courtesy of yours truly! from paisley and cream! how lovely, but adam road is like GROSSS, there are baby roaches EVERYWHERE, we never gonna go there again. even mathew and ttt were like hell disgusted. it's not just the girls!
hahaha! SO CUTE RIGHT! ((((:

and NAH SUPING IS BACK HOME! just BEFORE JIAYAN SNG leaves. and ADELINE leaves, and jacs already left. i have NO MORE girlies left. awfully disgrunted. unhappy :( left in the world of sad meddies. sighs.
and look at the lovely who came today! with his daddy! his dad has the amazing power to sleep despite his kid kicking him. and this lovely is OH SO CUTE! and he looks exactly like his mommy! (((: say hiii! (:
alrights. and 2008's over, way over. been a good yet bad year. good in many ways and bad and crazy in many others. guess every year's gonna be like that. let's hope that 2009's gonna be way better. the good stuff more than the bad. and all weirdos can go get pushed off CELS, not that high, but high enough to get them out of sight! (:

我在等你喊停

2009-01-09T09:01:00.000-08:00

10 jan 2009. 1.02am

西裝裡的口袋　
我整理過的愛
又破了那一點點　
我幫你補了誓言
從沒實現的搖滾夢　
我也陪你走好多遍
斷弦的吉他　
始終彈不出我要的答案

- 失忆, 梁静茹

paces.

2009-01-09T03:33:00.000-08:00

9 jan 2009. 7.39pm

went to sgh bright and early this morning to play as surrogates for the paces prep course. it's really quite interesting, we had missed cxr, hypogly drivers and i was supposedd to be the the pregnant graves called ms hashi yamamoto. what a pun! =p haahaha and we all think we're gonna get bad karma from this, trying to make it difficult for all the senior MOs and making their life hell for 14 minutes. but i dont mind doing it once in a while! get to see stuf we dont get to see normally in wards and my consultant was real nice! he gave me tutorials in btw the candidates. but i pretty much heard many things 5 times and said many things 5 times! hahaha. (:

steamboat.

2009-01-01T23:23:00.001-08:00

2 jan 2008. 3.23pm

hahahaha i said steamboat rocks. i think it still kind of rocks, but less so when you eat steamboat for christmas, nye and new year itself. hahahaha. i ate so much steamboat that im really really sick of it. and mommy was telling me. huhh, you've got so much more steamboat to come for cny. oh holy crap, can we switch to bbq for cny then? am missing the chicken wings and stingray. (:

AND im late for chp! hahaha. doesn't really matter i guess. i dont really contribute. hahaha. =p

oh BABY!

2008-12-31T10:51:00.000-08:00

1 jan 2009. 2.51pm

hellos world! HAPPY 2009!!!!
2009 will be happier, more brilliant, more lovely, more charming, more friendly, more smilies, and MORE LOVE! (: lesss stupid and silly and freaking and assholely and bitchy and unfriendly and idiotiic and freakking-hellish-crappish and ugly and weird and dirty and smelly peopleee! (((: cheers to the brilliant new year! (: i love everyone (:

anw. i think i have some hearing issues.
ade said: eh! this year is the year of ox!
i heard: eh, this is the year of fox!

okay, can only think of one now, but there were SO SO SO MANY today i thought i was really going mad and most of them ended up sounding rude or silly. maybe its just me! =p

ANDDDD, CMPS sucks hell. okay, nicer way to say it in a brand new year. 'i really dont need the need to do CMPS for us to understand the patients better. there's no darn use.'

AND STEAMBOAT ROCKS! (:

and i can see the sunset all over again.

2008-12-27T11:49:00.000-08:00

28 december 2008 3.51am

i think we're pretty much in a crazy and random world. everythings pretty much overrated most of the time. and school starts all over again in a day or two. pretty ridiculous and crappy. sometimes, things get so gross i wanna run away from medical school. bah.
:(

like yesterday when you came to say hello.

2008-12-22T11:59:00.000-08:00

23 december 2008 4.00am

hahahaha, it's 4am and im going to sleep soon, real soon. and i think certain things are really entertaining. im so amused i think i can hardly get to sleep, i cant wait to tell someone else about it! you know, those evil little acts when you're semi building your joy and happiness on others' misery, yet you are really really really tickled, this is one of those. once again, like adeline says, this is bad karma! and we've got lots of it already, dont care! hahaha (: cant be bothered, the year's gonna end, can do with a little bit of bad karma. (: im sure we all do this at some point of time. im so evil i cant stop grinning! (((:

AND! i dinnered, christmas-ed with amanda and jovina today! ((((: we ate A LOT, like a lot A LOT. hahahahaha. dinnered at fish and co and somehow, some eating bug hit us and we continued with tcc. how amazing is that. hahaha, shall upload the photos tmr, they're on the other computer (: and the new picasa's amazing too! the collages are way prettier than before. am loving it1 (: very lovely collages (: free also (i know i tend to get cheapo these days. can't help it, im like P-O-O-R.)

FYI! bloodbanks arent open on mondays, :( today, shihui and i trotted down all the way to the bloodbank to watch them service their air-conditioners and our jaws dropped, literally. and its my fault, i basically presumed that they open daily like daily. everyday. but NO, they don't. and i was mighty late, shihui had to wait for me for about half an hour to watch the people service the aircon at the bloodbank, im so sorry. i PROMISE to check out the timings before we go the next time round (:

and its 7-8 more days before the year officially ends. it's been a mighty long year, way too long. year of many highs and lows. i thought 2007 was amazingly terrible, looks like terrible's underrated sometimes.

alpha 321.

2008-12-15T06:59:00.000-08:00

15 december 2008 11.03pm

hahah. had my final ambulance run today! (: quite exciting, i had SIX calls, compared to the previous ONE call on the night run. (: but i slept like a log in the admin office in between. and the medic asked me, are you reading the black book that says essentials in emergency medicine too? why does every medical student that come here read it? hahaha. so embarrassing, we're totally like nerdy. all of us read textbooks and nothing else in our free time. cant blame us! there's eopt!

and the medics and paramedics this time round are like much better and nicer! (: so friendly! unlike the previous round, eeks! im glad i didnt pon this round of ambulance run, saw quite a bit of stuff too. ((:

and sadly, eopt is here all over again. that means more mugging to come. mug mug muggg. my brains are about to corrode away. =x

ANDDD

2008-12-14T00:32:00.001-08:00

AND i have a MEGA ULCER! which is super irritating. and peilin has a mega ulcer too. i was trying to show her my ulcer in the EDTC and she showed me hers! HAHAHAH hers was amazingly HUGE! more amazing than mine. this is what you do when you're stuck in ward rounds in the EDTC at 4ish pm because you're trying to look for a darn case write-up that you never knew was dued on tuesday morning! :(

my shirt says moo moo!

2008-12-13T23:46:00.003-08:00

14 december 2008 3.50pm

hahahaha, look at how cute ethan is! (: moo!
(((: oh! hahahaha(: hahahaha he's just smiles randomly at nothing, perhaps he's attracted to the lights. haahaha but that's so cute! (: (: (:

AND! amanda's happy 21st! (: long over-due but the birthday girl is oh so pretty (((: HAPPY BIRTHDAY (: AND! t'is the season to be jolly! (: the oh so pretty christmas lights downstairs! (: heartlands christmas (((: pretty right! (:

and i so so so wanna go christmas shopping, it looks so brilliantly happy and bright all over the place, all over town. but im so poor now. i don't quite wanna eat out as well. the new bags and the new shoes totally robbed me off all my remaining wealth. let's hope i get the SGH PACES examination surrogates job. i actually dreamt last night that the person in charge emailed me to tell me that i'm too late for the job offer and all the slots are taken up! i think im going mad, i keep dreaming of stuff that happen in the day and they con't in my dreams. it's getting weird and i'm worried that part of it will seem like reality to me! adeline told me it happens to her too, so im not that weird that all.

ANDDD! during night call that day, on thursday. i set an IV plug and end up causing a biohazard. that poor guy bled all over the place. and according to kenneth, it's probably 5-10mls worth and enough to run some labs on him. okay, im SORRY!! i will be more careful next time. i will remember that the heparin plug isn't a clip-on and ta-dah, its in and that you HAVE TO SCREW it on. hahahahahaha. and i will compress the vein MORE! hahahaha. so embarrassing!! the guy probably thought that i was an idiot! at 2am somemore! :(

okay, one of week of emed and then EOPT will come. i think emed's really exciting and i guess i will kind of miss it when it's over, when we all go back to boring CHP, COFM patient and endless survery doing and soon after move back to the wards and back to the mundane patient clerking and PE and clerking and PE and morning rounds. emed should be like 10weeks long, ok lah, maybe not that long, 6 weeks long would have been a great deal better! (:

i hate some people.

2008-12-10T06:54:00.000-08:00

10 december 2008 10.55pm

you know, i really really really detest some people at some point of them. you wanna step on their toes, kick them in the face and rip them apart, especially when they're right in front of you. like omfg. get out of my face. i dont blame them if they're stupid. stupidity is innate, especially for people who act like that. cant blame them then. but if not, they should just get the hell out of my face. darn, I HATE THEM! yuckers.

girlies.

2008-12-09T08:45:00.000-08:00

10 december 2008 12.46am

you know, girlies are one of the best things around.

they do the silliest things with you and never think that you're that silly after all. they are sad when you cry and are happy for you when you smile. they bitch with you about the most ridiculous and minute thing that happened that day. frown at the same person who dresses weirdly on the streets, chuckles at the same time when something dumb happens later on while shopping. they make your dark and twisty life not so dark and twisty after all, and hate people whom you hate and love people whom you love.

am glad to have girlies. (: and we're not that ridiculous after all, we're friendly girls (:

pharmaco.

2008-12-04T06:25:00.000-08:00

4 december 2008 10.26pm

omg. im going to fail pharmaco.
but i still went shopping today.
pharmaco + emed = sucky combi.
confirm plus chop plus guarantee fail.
10pm days are sucky days.
so we tell the pple on the shop floor we 'end at 8'.
so we get to eat dinner and be home at 9ish.
starbucks + salvation army = free dark cherry mocha frapp = love (:
but i donated money too. or rather my cg-mate donated on my behalf.
will make mental note to pay him tmr so i donate too.
im kind (: will not leech.

this is how im gonna talk till emed ends, because its hellish tiring but hellish exciting and hellish fun (((:

(((: heels.

2008-11-29T10:14:00.000-08:00

30 november 2008, 2.18am

i finally finally finally got my stacked heels! (: hahahaha, everyone knows that i love heels, black heels. i have gazillion pairs of them and i insist that they look different. this time, i still insist that this pair doesnt look like anything at home! (: im going to tear off the pricetag before my dad throws me and the rest of my heels out of the house. then we'll all have nowhere to stay! ): love my heels, love black heels. this is gonna make me stay happy for a while, despite the emed mad rush. but emed is adrenaline pumping, at least for now. and screw pharmaco. i dont know where to find time to mug for it.

p/s: im really really tall after wearing the steve madden heels. challenge me if you must! (: hahahaha. i LOVE them! <3!>

the conspiracy of silence.

2008-11-12T08:18:00.000-08:00

13 november 1008 12.23am

sometimes, there are actually certain stuff that we all know about, certain stuff that we dont like to speak about. so we pretend that it doesnt exist, we do not go there. we dont speak about it much. to prevent hurting and prevent getting hurt. it makes everything easier at the end of the day. it makes us all happier.

that's one of the things discussed today, at the palliative care attachment. i think it's true. not only in the medical context, but everything else. we choose to pretend that we dont know certain things, because they're too painful or unsure to be talked about, and the other party doesnt quite wanna speak about it too. so we all keep quiet and maintain our silence on it.

and YES, im sick again. :( what is wrong with my immune system. mathew suggests vitamin c, like redoxon. i wonder. ;(

你却走回你的记忆

2008-11-11T04:33:00.000-08:00

11 november 2008 8.42pm

安静了

love an jing, love an jing le.

we're halfway done (:

2008-11-05T21:42:00.000-08:00

6 november 2008 3.02pm

hohoho. and brilliantly, half of family medicine posting is OVER! (((: OVER OVER (: yayys. and so we're closer to eopt too :( i dont see how we can mug for it though. and the nicer part (the gp part is over), next week's the warzone of polyclinics. hahaha. and its choa chu kangggg, dont tell me its still on the red line, its on the OTHER end of the red line, not gonna like it :( bahhhs. and i have THREE more writeups due, so what if they're only 3 pages, its still 3 writeups, stinky crap. :(

everyone say hi! (:

2008-11-05T07:09:00.000-08:00

5 november 2008 11.12pm

hahaha everyone say hi to pretty heels, (: oh so pretty. i want platform heels. stacked heels, so pretty yet so comfy type. (: i'll be so in love with them (: i'll wear them everyday. i want new heels (: then i will throw the old dirty ones out (: hahaha. im going crazy. shoes are love ((: <3!>

i kinda like.

2008-11-04T07:49:00.000-08:00

4 november 2008 11.50pm

hahaha, i think i kinda like toilets. loos, washrooms. hahahaha. here's to camwhoring in the loos.

look!!!

and mooreee! (((:

omg! (((: and i truly believe that if i dig harder, there will be a LOT more of such photos (((: dont ask me why the toilet. i think a lot of girls do it (:

(((: this is (:

2008-11-02T07:20:00.000-08:00

2 november 2008 11.00pm

look! ade and i have the same brilliant display picture! nah su ping! you're in the photo too (((: omg. (((:

this is us! (((:

2008-11-02T07:12:00.000-08:00

2 november 2008 10.30pm

say hello to the rest of the yeo-ies ((((: we had dinner at chijmes today (: we have a new member! say hi! (((:

dinner was yummie! ((: and happy birthday, mommy! she's 50! (: hahahas. now i feel fat all over again!

imperfections.

2008-11-01T07:15:00.000-07:00

1 november 2008 10.03pm

we always tend to notice imperfections of people around us, imperfections of people whom we know too well and people whom we don't always like. we dislike them and speak about their imperfections to others, complaining and ranting about them. and we often forget that we've got imperfections too. we've lived with our own imperfections for so long that they no longer seem to bother us anymore. we forget that we have flaws that make people upset too and we only remember the times when we're upset with others. but everyone's got imperfections. so we've got to accept imperfections and live with them like how the others live with ours (:

colic.

2008-10-31T07:05:00.000-07:00

30 october 2008 10.06pm

yes, i have gerd.
and they suspected ulcers.
NOW! i have intestinal colic, apparently related to the gerd. so no, i didnt pon fam med today. not like i really wanted to attend the lectures and tutorials. but the colic's terrible as well. i think my git is quite screwed. bahhhh. :( how painful.

but! had a nice gp today! went to the one im doing my fam med attachment at, because they're pretty much the only one who's opened this early and the gp there is quite nice! he's really super duper nice! (: waived my consultation charges, totally didnt expect that to happen. ((: so he rocks!

my love.

2008-10-31T00:47:00.000-07:00

31 October 2008 3.50pm

MY LOVE - LENE MARLIN

lovely song from a long time ago.
lene marlin, my love (:

i hope that im still with you
as you are with me
you always will be
please come and find me, my love
im ready now to come home
please come and find me, my love
lets leave this place
lets leave no trace

brand new! (:

2008-10-31T00:04:00.001-07:00

31 October 2008 2.30pm

(((: FINALLY! after much hiatus, i've finally shifted my blog! been so reluctant to blog for the longest time ever on that stagnant, liveless blog and it's great to start all over again. brannndd neww start! (((: